My mum was confused about the idea of me wearing cat ears and paws in public.
My dad accused me of attention seeking. I don’t know if he actually believes that, but in the context, it was clearly a way of trying to make me feel bad and want to get away from the image of being an attention seeker and so NOT wear them.
My mum, did not believe this, because she knows who I am as a person and that attention is not something I like (well, not in the way of being stared at in public). However, this left her confused about why I WAS doing it.
The answer is quite simple really. ”Ooh cat ears, I’ma wear those”. That’s about as much thought that goes into it.
The thing my dad said, and other things other people have said in my family (strangely enough, most people who are NOT close to me don’t make comments on my character based on insignificant things) things like saying it’s an attention thing, trying to make me feel like I need to care about people’s thoughts…
It’s annoying because a few years ago it would have been impossible for me to do anything like that. I was far too awkward, far too self-conscious, and had far too many thoughts of other people’s potential thoughts in my head and worried and it overcrowded me so that I couldn’t (intentionally) do some things which were of no consequence because of my paranoia. And I overcame that, not completely, I still have some difficulties with that, but I overcame it quite a lot. I stopped being a repressed person in public, I was able to just talk about things and just do things and it was all fine and dandy, so people saying things like that, eugh, it’s horrible because it feels like it’s completely disregarding the progress I’ve made working out difficulties I have.